This is in regards to my future foundation, which in my mind is still a very real thing, and I do hope to have a website up at some point, just not when I was planning. When does anything go according to plan?
I'm not at all upset, what's happening now is that I'm prioritizing. You already know that this is the BIGGEST thing I will ever attempt to do with my life. Publishing this book about the opioid epidemic and how it effected my family, and dream of a foundation that will help families one day.
I've watched, heard, and read SO MANY things recently on the opioid epidemic. I'm reading a book, I just watched a show on Netflix, podcasts... etc. (news articles, which are countless).
Guys, I'm so incredibly overwhelmed by just how bad this is, and it's only getting worse.
At the end of last year I watched President Trump's speech, along side his wife. I was pissed, inspired, nodded, shook my head, turned it off, raged at my phone which was broadcasting it... I don't care what your stance on the current political climate of our world is, it's not about that. What I've seen continuously throughout this is that people are lonely, ashamed, afraid, embarrassed, heart broken, hopeless, lost, confused, victimized. You can't offer a single solution like "National Get Rid Of Your Pills Day". That will never work!!! Maybe for a handful of people, but not the general population that uses or abuses narcotics/opioids (they are one in the same).
My head is spinning. I find that I am second guessing my decisions to start or plan certain aspects of what I have in my head. Like gathering stories for a website. Yes, you all have stories, but no, either I'm approaching this badly, or the community isn't there yet for anyone to feel comfortable sharing. That's OK.
What we need is a safe space. Like what they're building in Seattle?? I don't know, but I really want to go to Seattle now to find out more about what they are doing out there to help addicts and their families. Which, if you don't know, is causing huge debate. I'll find a link so you can see what's going on up there. Here we go: https://www.washingtonpost.com/politics/awash-in-overdoses-seattle-creates-safe-sites-for-addicts-to-inject-illegal-drugs/2017/01/27/ddc58842-e415-11e6-ba11-63c4b4fb5a63_story.html?noredirect=on&utm_term=.775cf2449eee
Seattle, WA is the first in the United States to do anything like this, and suddenly I'm desperate to be part of it, and I don't even know if I agree with it. There is a good and bad side to everything.
What I know is that people will continue to die regardless and I just don't feel like I'm doing enough. I want to do so much more but I'm lacking something. Many somethings.
I guess what I'm saying is, that official announcement that was going to happen on Sept 1, is not going to happen. I'll still blog, and be active, and see about building a community and gathering resources for people struggling, and trying to publish my book, but all else is being put on hold until I have what I need to move forward with it.
I hope my next big announcement is when my book will be available for people to read. That's step 1, and I need to really focus on that right now. Wish me luck. It could still be several months to a year out. I'll find other things to write about in the meantime.