I have a lot on my mind right now, as I'm sure you do as well. The world we live in is changing in scary ways. Some of it will be permanent, and some of it, even if we get back to normal, will just take time to recover from.
Parents across the country (world) have been tasked with homeschooling their kiddos, and although we have the support from dedicated teachers, and school staff, this nonsense is overwhelming!
I was a preschool teacher for a couple of years, and I can say that this is nothing like that. Teaching someone else's kids, and creating structure for your own... two different ball games here.
You know what I'm talking about.
I've been so overwhelmed, and feel like I've been bombarded with emails, and messages, or tagged in social media on the right way to do it all, or what to add to their new isolation and at-home curriculum. My head has been spinning. My stress levels through the roof. My bad habits increasing in ferocity.
As with many things in my life, I said out loud to the world "I will NEVER home-school my kids"...
And the world said "Oh yeah??" **Big middle finger**
So here we are. Homeschooling.
Why world?! Why?!!!! #facepalm
Stress can and will kill you. The entire world is stressed out right now, and I'm here to say to you, no matter what you're doing with your time, with your kids, with your family... Throw that middle finger back at the world if anyone gives you grief for falling apart.
My dog broke his leg last week (right, like we really needed that on top of everything else) and I've watched both him, and our other dog, deal with stress and try to find ways to cope. I've read about what their stress looks like, and how to help them deal with it. Not just that, but for people as well, I'm seeing a lot of parallels here. Everything I've seen in my two dogs, I've been witnessing in my kids and myself.
My dogs have their own reasons to stress, and now they're also picking up on the stress of the household.
We are all feeding on each other's stress.
WE ARE ALL STRESSED!
And I'm starting to feel angry. Every morning when I wake up to new information in my email about what to add to my kid's day and all I want to do is send an angry email back screaming "I'M DOING MY BEST, GIVE ME A BREAK!".
I've personally made some goals so that I can cope with this month, but again, I want to say, if you're falling apart, it only makes sense. Don't beat yourself up for it. Don't pressure yourself to become the best new thing you've just been tasked with thanks to this nonsense the world is facing together.
I read the book EDUCATED by Tara Westover right before all of this happened, and all I can say is... she NEVER got an education. She has a PhD now. So...
If our kids miss out on a couple of months of education, guess what, they'll be fine.
Find ways to cope. Prioritize your life, and that will look different from everyone else's lives, and take a deep breath, and continue waking up in the mornings.
Right now, that's all that matters.
Now, who wants to do a Netflix Party with me?